April 21, 2014

Hey!

That's cool about Wes and Charity! I'm sure that was awesome for both of them! Thanks for working on the package :) I appreciate it. Especially the no Candy thing. Cause yeah. I'm just not that into candy.. haha I was gonna ask for some other stuff in the package but I forgot haha. Oh well. So this past week was interesting. Decently better than what we've been having but for some odd reason I lost the ability to think and reason for myself and people we're working with... It was very weird and a little frustrating cause I couldn't figure out what was going on and couldn't think of a way to get out of it! haha Oh well things are getting better now. So yeah that was interesting. So life continues on as it usually does for us. Had our usual meetings. Went on exchanges with E. Schow. And tried to teach a few lessons haha. JK. actually we were able to find a couple people this week. So that was cool and we had a lesson with Dwayne at Bro. Winslow's (our WML) house. Dwayne is so cool. He's already read like all of 1 nephi and was reciting to us how awesome the Tree of life was. And how he liked the story of when they had to go back and get the plates and etc etc. He had notes and questions and it was way cool. So he said he's gonna try and give 4 hrs a day to read until he finishes the BoM. He's a total miracle.

We've started to try and help the Less-actives in our ward too. Most have been wanting to get back into church oh and btw! This past week we got a hold of Sheree and we're gonna meet with her again. She still has concerns and feels kinda inferior. Which we told her wasn't true. It's just the high standards we hafe. So hopefully we can start to clear that up. But yeah. So I guess the main point I wanna talk about is something that I figured today. And with Easter and the time we have to remember Christ's sacrifice I had a little "Duh" moment. So recently (I think with the lack of good sleep and being brain frazzled I haven't really felt like I've progressed much or anything like that with the past few days. So I've been doing different things to help out. And they've worked to a certain extent. So with my weaknesses and flaws and also my perfectionist self I have a little cycle of beatin myself up and then falling, but luckily I have the character of always pressing forward. So that is kinda like taking a couple steps forward and backward and such. So Today when I was just kinda over all of this I just asked God "K what am I missing? Please fill me in so I can at least know the next couple of steps I need to take in the fog. I feel I'm so close. Please show me." So I flipped open to Moroni 7 where it's talking about Faith, Hope, and Charity. I've read that a bunch of times before and today it just had a different "Duh" meaning haha and then I read in the book "Continuous Conversion" about the atonement. And So pretty much after reading that I've realized that most of the way I do things is by sheer will power alone. Working towards some "Checkpoint" where I deserve the help of God to overcome my faults. And this is all stuff I've learned early before but have forgotten cause my focus has gotten a little screwy. So I'm here like "DUH" haha you're an idiot. You and Christ are supposed to work together. Yeah his Grace makes up our slack and all that but so often we over look the fact that He is actually the one walking beside us up the Mountain. He is the one who catches us when we fall (only if we let him) but he is always right there beside us. When we try and get up on sheer will power alone (granted some have the ability to keep doing this but only to find themselves constantly tripping, while others trip and just stay there totally defeated) And the part I love is that if we remember that this life and process of true conversion is a joint effort. The day we stand to be judged will be a grand one because we will have walked the path alongside with the one who made it possible to stand before our maker. I am stubborn and try to do things my own and I do have the ability and strength to get myself decently far. But just like it was mentioned in General Conference. We can get so much farther with God on our side. He can do much more with us than we can by ourselves. So that was a cool little moment for me. Good thing god is patient with us all as we try to learn the lessons we need. I know deep down that God needs me for a big purpose. I've had experiences to lead me to believe that. I'm not sure what it is quite yet, and it's a daily process but I do feel I'm heading in the right direction and that is all that matters. I love you all. Thanks for all you do and your love and support! I hit my 19th month mark on Saturday haha it doesn't feel like that at all! I feel like it's only been a year still. But I guess it'd be smart to start figuring out a game plan for that... Eh. It'll happen how it's supposed to happen! K love ya!!

Love,

Elder Derrek Bowler

 here's our district today after playin some baseball :) it was fun!

Here is a Easter video I want everyone to see!

http://easter.mormon.org/?cid=HPTU041514694

April 14, 2014

Hey Guys! So yeah mom if you can send a little extra so I can get some different soaps and detergents and such that would be cool. The mission doctor got me a prescription that should just get rid of it completely and also a cream to put on it twice a day. It's just really weird cause I've never dealt with this before. But it's cool I guess. I got a letter as well this past week from Alec too. It's funny cause he said he used to hate my advice cause he thought it was hypocritical cause it was when I was struggling and I only gave him the advice so he wouldn't have to go through the same stuff I did! haha But he's grateful for it now which I'm glad. Everyone is on a different path and a different time table that only the Lord is aware of.

So this past week was alright. Actually it was pretty good cause I learned things that have helped me a ton. Now the missionary work aspect isn't all that different here to be honest. It's kinda in the same cycle over and over again. Except for Dwayne. He is so sweet! But I'll tap into that in a bit.

So after conference I learned things that I needed to hear. And throughout the past week I've been trying to apply them a little more. THAT and I got a letter from Beecher which was exactly what I needed to hear cause it added to the other thoughts I've been having and then we had a Zone Meeting that helped a ton. So main focus through all of it was Gratitude. Bottom line. Which I always knew but like I think I mentioned before I've been trying to think of ways to finally break out of my "perfectionist" type cycle where I muster up the courage to give it my absolute best, fall short in one or two points, and then fall. and Fall hard! then repeat the cycle. and just get burnt out on trying and then just stay miserable and failing to enjoy the little moments that can pass by but have an incredible impact on our lives. So that's what I've focused on more and more, Even though this area is a little more difficult and isn't sprouting "immediate" results. I do know deep down that I am still doing the necessary parts of missionary work. I gotta keep reminding myself of what you said mom. Where in Westland, when I was struggling I was able to feel successful because of the efforts of some other missionary. And me and who I was and my personality were needed and saved for that specific time. Now it's my turn to pay it forward. I've grown more, understand more. Yes I'm still human and can be discouraged and disappointed because it is very hard sometimes to find so many people who are not ready at this moment to accept the gospel fully. We actually got dropped by Thayle and Everett Sunday morning while trying to get them to come to church. They're some of the nicest people I've met here and they say they "Know" that this isn't right for them. and right now it probably isn't. Thayle will prolly be the one who starts to give it another shot later down the road. She even said. Right now they're in the process of gaining a strong faith in God, Which is amazing btw, and also she said that if the Mormon road was something God told her to hop on later down the road she'd do it. So it was good that they said that. We baked a cake for them and all this other stuff to gain their trust (which it worked and they love having us come over even still haha) so we'll keep in touch with them. Like I said. Just Sowing the ground. haha

So along with working on being more grateful (which has worked a ton) Beecher thanks for the words of President Hinkley "The trick is learning to thank the Lord for allowing us to have the ride" after talking about how life is like a train full of loud noises and smoke and just not all that enjoyable but every once in a while you'll get beautiful skies and vistas to look at. And how important it is to thank the Lord for ALL of it. And that's how I feel my mission has been. Pretty rough. Full of trials. Some pretty far out there, but am now starting to make my nightly prayers just straight gratitude. And it was really quite amazing at what happened. I just felt better. Better about my situation. Closer to God and my testimony is just becoming more and more clear amongst all the cloudiness and smoke that life can bring. That was something they asked us to do in Zone Meeting and it was really cool. Sister Nilsen also came up with the "Desire Cycle" which is cool cause you can work this backwards when you're lacking desire. Lemme see if I can get this to work all legit like.. So at the top you have DESIRE, which leads to POWER and AUTHORITY, which helps us to become more CHRISTLIKE full of CHARITY or that PURE LOVE that leads us to be better and ultimately TRUST in GOD and we use that trust by our AGENCY or CHOICES and then our OBEDIENCE and SACRIFICE to that choice and the FAITH (which is a Gift of God) leads us to a stronger TESTIMONY of JESUS CHRIST which then increases our DESIRE. and they cycle repeats getting tighter and tighter the more we work on it everything becomes more firm and steadfast and in the center of all the is Christ. And Charity. which "Leadeth men to do good" so it's more like a Spiral than a cycle. but hopefully that makes sense. So if your lacking desire. work the cycle backwards and figure out what isn't quite where it should be. like if your lacking the Desire. check your testimony and the way your living in accordance with that. etc etc. It's pretty freakin awesome if you ask me. haha. 

So Dwayne is doing pretty well. We didn't get a chance to quite sit down with him but we've kept in contact. We don't know what happened yesterday cause we tried calling and knocking on his door a bunch. He played Basketball with our ward and balled a little too hard and ended up hurting his back. But He told us he was gonna take today or some day and read the whole Book Of Mormon. Which was cool. And also Whitney Stetlar. A Less-Active member who's avoided church for years. (kinda like Calvin actually) but she'll feed the missionaries cause she feels bad for us. She's moving here shortly but has had a lot of sweet little tender mercies that have softened her heart and she randomly showed up to church yesterday! and then gets up and bears a testimony! I about crapped a brick!! haha I was in serious shock. It was pretty sweet. We also had a funny experience while I was on exchanges with E. Blalock and we were teaching a lesson with John Mack (A recent convert who had to wait two years to get dunked) He was tearing through the bible and "Street Talked" a couple times which was pretty freaking funny actually. But yeah. Other than that not much has happened. I was able to get this supplement from a member that has seriously helped out with sleep... the past two days I actually wake up feeling like I slept a little bit. And the first night I woke up at 2:30am and couldn't fall back asleep till 4:30. and I still felt rested somewhat! haha nuts right? I also had a pretty cool study on Moroni and the stud he was. (Ties in with the breaking of my cycle) So that was cool. So E. McC has most of the pictures cause I kept forgetting my camera but I'll try and get some soon to everyone. PS. Guess what our mission is doing here soon with the Book Of Mormon Play coming to town? A massive Social Media Split where all these pics of us and what we really do as missionaries throughout our whole mission will hit viral on all different social media sites. That's gonna be pretty tight! K love and miss you all. Mom I don't want a ton of Candy. I'm on 6 months to Sexy and I haven't done to well with the first month hahaha. But Whatever you wanna send please send :) Gum would be much appreciated. If they have Costco size packs for 5 gum RPM mint kind that would be sick. if not Polar Ice is cool too. K Love and miss you all!!! Thanks for the emails!

 Aussie Football!! 

So we just got done playing Aussie football in the mud and rain. SO much fun!! here are some pics from that! So sweet. And hopefully you got the message from mike! K Love ya!!

April 7, 2014

Hey guys!

First off thanks mom and dad for your emails. I'm trying to do better at all that. I hate feeling like a robot so I'm not really one. Just feel like I'm going through the motions at times. Which isn't all that great either. I think a lot of it is just me beating myself up cause I just feel I haven't reached where I thought I would be at this point and just trying to deal with people and situations that I don't want to deal with. But that's the wrong way to look at it I guess. Conference helped a ton actually. I have been looking forward to it for a while now cause all the questions I've been having have just been weighing me down. But I got a little pick me up so things should start getting better. Hopefully soon. This area has just been a little difficult. Which happens from time to time. There were a lot of talks that I likes. Saturday and Sunday morning and also Priesthood sessions were amazing. I got a lot from it all and can't wait to go through and study it all in more depth! I loved both of Elder Uchtdorf's, Elder Hollands, Elder Hallstroms, And the man who spoke about The olympic athletes. That one answered much of my questions.

 So pretty much this past week was transfers and conference weekend so not a whole lot happened. We did have some pretty cool lessons though. And things in the ward are moving forward. Our bishop is actually really missionary minded. it's just trying to help the ward feel the same way. There's only 45 active members basically and I think the task scares and stresses them all out. But our ward just finished a 40-day fast and things have already started to roll forward. So that's cool to see. Dwayne is solid. He is probably the hope for this area that everyone needs. He studies so in depth and wants to dig into the Book of Mormon. He came to Priesthood session and got so much out of it! It was very cool to see. We also taught Donny Brown. His dad is a less active member and Donny is a child of record but never got baptized. I think he's in his 30's. But a car fell on him and drug him for 30 feet and left his bottom half paralyzed. So he's in a hard time right now. But we were able to go over there and hopefully can start helping him. I'm trying my best to focus on others, and at times it's hard cause I think we all feel we need to be right ourselves in order to lift another. (which we do but I feel like I constantly need more improvement. So I sometimes miss the mark.. I'm learning haha) but yeah. Things are starting to pick up and I'm trying to always better myself. It was great seeing everyone at the transfer meeting (I went cause E. Beverley went home) but I got to see Mike and all my mission buddies :) So that was cool. I'm also really glad the sun is shining a lot more! haha I miss the warmth and the sun and heat. (humidity can still be forgotten but I'll take it for the time being haha) I hope all is going well with you guys and know I love and miss you all and try my best to make you all proud. Love ya!!

Elder Derrek Bowler. 

April 2, 2014

Hey Mom,

Thanks for the update. So To be completely honest I don't have much to say. It starts to seem like every week the same things just keep happening. This past week we were actually blessed a little more with people to teach and everything. Actually the one cool guy we found was Dwayne. He related super well to the Restoration and actually quoted the scriptures we use to us! That was sweet. And we also helped move a family that are really cool but not super interested. We're just trying to figure out what to do here to actually get people to progress. This past Sunday all of our gators bailed on us and I was walking around with a bag with egg yolks and chopped veggies and meat to make omelets haha and the member we had with us just took us back to his place and I just made omelets for them there. So. Transfers are also tomorrow. E. McC and I are both staying which will throw my record off a little bit cause Since Westland every area I've been in I was only in for 3 Months and I haven't had a companion longer than 4 1/2 months. and that was Pebbles. So To be honest, I'm a little bummed. This area is burning me out and It's hard not seeing more success cause I just feel like I'm wasting my time and I'm just not really enjoying myself... But Imma keep working hard and start to try and make it more fun. Hopefully this next transfer things pick up! But anyways. Oh Tim is in Jail and that was depressing and everyone else just tells us they don't want to be mormon. They'll listen but that's about it. I also think the 3 sets of missionaries are burning our ward (It's a friggin branch) and so we taught 5th sunday lesson and I don't think that got anyone excited. We're trying our best to tell everyone that they don't have to do the things they usually think of when they hear "Missionary Work" Just be a friend to people around you and just talk about the gospel in super simple ways like "I enjoyed myself at church this past sunday" and then people will ask and if they ask questions then you just tell them "well I have two friends of mine who actually talk about this stuff all the time, we could do dinner or something and I'll invite them over" or you can just invite your friends to activities.. But Everyone is comfortable and don't want to do anything. Which is understandable. So We're constantly trying to find new ways to switch things up cause not much has happened over the past 3 months it feels like. Sorry if this email sounds a little negative. I'm just a little frustrated but it's just a part of my learning and that's what matter most. I love you all. Thanks for helping me out always. How's Alec doing? Tell the family I love em all! I'll write more on Monday! :)

Love,
Elder Derrek Bowler.

PS- The weather is getting better. We were scrimping on miles so we had to bike and we always seem to pick the days when the weather sucks haha. We had a total white out snow storm last week and then yesterday it got to 75 and so it's crazy during spring. Nothings really blossomed yet. But it's getting close. So That was interesting. And we also went on exchanges and met the weirdest people. I even witnessed a drug deal that was less than 5 feet away from us haha. Freaking nuts.... but yeah! And I also was able to pay my ticket the day before I got a warrant for my arrest!! haha We had to go downtown cause I didn't have the extra money to pay online! Such is the life of a missionary! Also mom. If you could put a little extra in with the Excema lotion so I can get personal items that would be great. Love ya!!