Columbus Ohio Temple

Monday, January 14, 2013

Trying to keep things going...

Hey Everyone.
First off I just want to say congrats to Zack!! haha Bro that is so sick!! Washington D.C.?? Ha I've heard stories about that mission! Carry a gun with you k? ;) One of the Elders in my MTC district had a friend in Washington D.C. and He's never been so scared haha it's a giant mixingbowl of people. Glad we both serve in sketchy places :) haha Sister Missionaries always get the safe areas and the cars so with the rise in numbers of sister missionaries lot of Elders will be hitting the trashier places. So Good luck! I can't wait to hear from you and about your experiences! let me know if I can help. When do you leave?? K, off that subject. So this last week has felt like a month. It really has just been such a long hard week. So Monday we had a good P-Day. Tuesday we had Specialized Training which was pretty good. Got to see Elder Foster and Elder Coughlan there. I miss those fools haha and I also saw Elder Wheadon there, and that night we had a missionary devotional for our stake and President Nilsen talked there. Wednesday was alright. Ever since the beginning of this transfer slothfulness has been ever so present and it's been hard getting out and rolling and doing missionary work. So the whole obedience factor wasn't exact and we just weren't succesful at all, cause we had no power. I'll explain later. Wednesday night we went to Sister De La Fuente's house for dinner and she fed us some delicious mexican food... Oh my gosh it was sooo good! Then after we were leaving a couple drunk guys were out front of there house and I heard them yell let's jump them kinda thing but they didn't haha but I was prepared to get in a fight. They just yelled out dumb stuff to us. It's not the first time. Thursday was another slow day I went with Elder Cornia (spanish elder in the complex across from us) to go see Dr. Sullivan and we drove by the Ford dealership and I saw my Raptor and I wanted to cry. Ha they're not very common over here cause there is really no use for them so it's a rare event. Then we got lunch at Sonic and went back. It was good for him too cause he's struggling with his companion from Peru. (he thinks he owns the world..) So that night I called Sister Nilsen and caught her up on everything cause I needed to. And told her about the laziness and all that and she said that we needed to text her at 6:30 or right when we wake up and at 10AM or when we leave to go to work. We got a little rebuked by her. Which was good. And then President called the Next morning... Ha holy crap we felt great after that. And I have already been really frustrated to get out and work and I could have and should have put my foot down a lot even if I am the Junior Companion but yeah. So it helped us get kicked started and out ward members aren't the most supportive cause of previous missionaries and so it's just been a difficult area all around and for the past 3 days we've had to do things ourselves.. So just in the past 3 days we've probably tracted a total of 24 hours.. We did get a ton of potentials and 3 Investigators where we taught a little bit and such but I have never been soo exhausted. These are long days and I have no Idea how I'm gonna keep this up. My body just absolutely hates me and does not want to cooperate with me and so it makes everything so much harder. And I try to not focus on myself and all that and think of other etc. etc. but it is just so ridiculously difficult... two years is a long time for sleep deprivation and struggling. The past 4 months have felt like forever and not much has changed so lately I've been contemplating going home and figuring stuff out and possibly come back out or just stay and keep trying cause it's hard to deal with things while doing missionary work. So I've been praying and seeking answers and help and I just don't know what to do so I'm still working on that. We'll see what happens. It's just hard to see things being better or different. And my focus and attention span has been shot. I don't know what my problem is but I have never been so frustrated in my life and this past week has made everything harder. But I'm still trying. I'm trying to love the people and love the area and love the work I'm doing but it's been a challenge and it almost feels like I'm not doing any good for any one or anything. And that's not me beating myself or anything like that. But just constantly trying to bust my butt and do things and work hard and just being exhausted is just becoming really taxing. So we will see how this next week goes. I have a couple videos that we did and pictures I'll see if I can get those to work. If not you'll just have to see the videos in two years. They're pretty funny. There is always a Police Helicopter circling around near our neighbor hood and there are a ton of Samalians out here that are pretty sketchy.. So I'm glad I'm still safe. Bike areas are a little more dangerous. Hence why I want my knife ;) Anyways I gotta go. I love you all! I'll talk to you next week!
Elder Derrek Bowler

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